In the heat. Hanging on till its no more.

Its that time of the semester again... where the tension is at its highest. Your thoughts are all about your assignments. Well I can say that I for one accepted the fact that I couldn't finish everything this semester... one thing has to fail.. and its going to hurt a lot. But there is just that one part of me still hoping.. and fighting to hang on... because I want to finish this semester with accomplishment, and no accomplishment comes without a reward.. yep... I always look forward to the end of each semester because I can head back to JB.. those places were the best. So that's what I'm fighting for.

Even when I've calculated the amount of time needed to finish is already long out of range and struggling is useless. There's still a side of me.. which has hope.. well its not bad to have hopes even when everything doesn't seem its going to work out. That's because the only thing we can do is "HOPE" itself. It also, of course... makes us human. That we'd want to see things happen the way we want it.

So. I ain't giving up yet.

Here's a song to motivate.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0V7aUT13qtM

J360! Fight! ROW ROW FIGHT THE POWAH!
DO THE IMPOSSIBLE, SEE THE INVISIBLE.. ROW ROW FIGHT THE POWAH!
TOUCH THE UNTOUCHABLE, BREAK THE UNBREAKABLE
ROW ROW FIGHT THE POWAH!

Interests, Hobbies, Ideals&Dreams.

Well. Today. I will be talking about a few interests, hobbies, and ideals of mine.

First of all, my interests. I have interests like, anime, japanese pop culture, japanese music, Initial D. Many japanese oriented interests, but I also have some other western influenced interests like, photography, writing (diary or blogging but I am considering buying a diary for m
e since I wanna try something, writer). Learning Japanese too! maybe writing in japanese xD

Next, My hobbies. Hobbies are a great thing to spend your time but it depends on the kind of hobbies you have. My hobbies are, surfing the web, playing video games, playing VISUAL NOVELS (I am quite the GOD OF CONQUEST dude in visual novels lol), skyping with friends, and lastly walking around places (jalan-jalan, makan angin) with music in my ears. I go to JB Jusco Indah playing Initial D AS5 with chinese dudes. Those days were the best. The taste of youth at its best. High spirited. being competitive. Just like the young kids we were during childhood

INITIAL D!

Ideals&Dreams. Oh shit. Now this is gonna be a long one. Trust me. Ideals... everyone has em.. not every human being have the same ideal but its can be as great as the other or even not as good as the other. But at the end of the day, everyone has their own measuring scale. Happiness means differently to everyone. I have alot of dreams, Playing the piano like a master. Being on stage playing From Y to Y - Hastune Miku. Have an audience or not, I don't care. I just wanna play on the stage. Now thats just all for self-satisfaction and my interest and obsession for vocaloid, hatsune miku, the piano, and being happy.

The other BIG DREAM is... Live in Japan!

Oh Japan! You might not be the best. But still you are the place to be for me. Just living in Hokkaido, Sapporo. Having a small house rented or apartment. Then having a well payed job. That's enough for me. But, the is a fight for me that I want to carry on. The fight for A position in any of these japanese studios. JC Staff, KEY, TBS, TYPE-MOON, SHAFT, Production I.G. and wish to get more opportunities to create great Japanese animations. Yep. Production Houses or some sort.. I need a clearer view. My aim is still not accurate enough. But at least I know what I wanna do.. seriously.. I believe it will just hit me one day. The final answer to my journey ;D Thats all for now

J360! ファイト!

Something I didn't thought I'd be interested in.

Now here is something most of the people who know me wont expect me to be interested in. 'PHOTOGRAPHY'. Yep, you read it. Photography. I took up photography in my first semester in Diploma for Multimedia Design at Saito College. Well, Saito College isn't what I expected it to be when I visited it for the first time. But the people here are fine with me, I can never asked for a college with better people than these from my experience. Okay back to topic. At first, when I saw the subject photography. I thought I'm not gonna really like it that much apart from all the fancy cameras and learning how to use it well. But I soon discovered the fun about Photography. Well what is it? I'll tell you. ADVENTURE! TRAVEL! ONE-IN-A-LIFETIME SHOTS! Yes, these are what made me appreciate photography as a whole and enjoyed learning it. Let me show you my adventure of what I saw and captured. Through my lens. ;D

Now this is at SURIA KLCC we had alot of adventures indeed. Oh look here is our group shot of us 8D (not taken by me though)

This is how I found adventure.. starting from KLCC. It was on Friday when I only had 2 hours of sleep, I woke up in the morning and went for Drawing Class. It was tiring. At 1pm, Overhearing my Photography lecturer, he said other class is going to take photos at the THEAN HOU Temple. So i took this oppurtunity to go for double class, going to the temple for the afternoon and then going to KLCC at evening to night for the shots.

Now this is at THEAN HOU Temple. Hot and tiring for the afternoon. I rested around 5pm and our lecturer sorta 'belanja' us drinks. Coke! awww yeah!

So after that I went to LRT station.. travelled to KLCC.. had a small snack dinner in KFC.. bla bla bla took some night shots and then we took our group picuter as I had shown above and went home. Aaahh Home at 11pm, my eyes were tired. Feet weary from walking all day and leaning around various positions to get the right shot. But I got alot of awesome pictures, and I was satisfied. That is how I saw adventure through my eyes. You go out and do it and come back and feel tired and satisfied with what you did.

Also. Some might call this a crush, some calls this puppy love ( is it the same o_O?) as an amateur photographer. She caught my lens. That moment was unforgettable. The moment I looked upon her. I knew I couldn't ignore my feelings.

-PICTURE REMOVED-

I ought to say this but, I believe my heart is hungry for a thing that wont happen. I mean, my future and her future is different. Thus I don't think we'd be staying together forever. But its still driving me nuts at the same time.. That's all for now. I bet this is the first most interesting post I made so far in my blog xD hahaha.

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Back with a short post

I'm back to my blog again... but with just a short post.. alot of things changed since I left.

Troubled Times

In Troubled times..... I keep getting frustrated.. I can't take it no more... Everything I try to do ends up in a BIG MISTAKE . I seriously can't take it anymore.... why is this happening to me.. Why do I keep failing to do simple stuff..... so I even tried to turn to GOD for help... and yet it still isn't enough.. there are still alot more problems to solve.... I keep making mistakes that I lost my self-confidence and because... BECAUSE I was frustrated.. I end up getting angry and then I make even more mistake..... and no one understands me because of how many screwed up things I had done.. ''God, what is going on?'' what is happening? everything is so wrong.. I wan't to make things right...

Ruby Gloom... No more...

Yes... it seems I have finally grown out of this stage.... I used to love ruby gloom alot... thinking it was a good think and a helpful thing...... fortunately.. it is... I feel different now.... I feel changed... as if RuBy Gloom isn't something anymore... I don't feel sad for this.. or any of it.. its just a part I'm going through life.... What I'm waiting for is the BIG moment of my life... and only GOD knows what it is.... so I have unsubscribed.. removed.. and deleted.. my connections from ruby gloom community... Come to think of IT, what should I do know after this stage... probably.. and most obviously.. SPM is my concern... but yet my mind feels unsure if it is my concern... there is a part of me that thinks of something else.... and so my adventure through life continues....

Coming Near the End of the Line .

End of the line it is becoming... I have no idea what to do next... It seems the people I hoped for Shut the doors and left me out in the cold... Who knows... My test is over.. holiday is here... yet I'm still sitting out in the cold.. all alone... No one understands me... Its like I'm moving through a thorn bush blindfolded and open wounds.... stab my open wounds.. hurting more painful.. But the thought of killing oneself is not to be done or to be practiced.. No route of escape.. No exit.. I am forever trapped here.... END OF THE LINE IT IS...