Can't sleep. So I started blogging instead.

Hi guys, It has been awhile again while I've made another blog post as always. But I just felt like typing and speaking out my mind because I'm really bored (I can't sleep) and stressed out. Also feeling like I'm against a wall and at the end of my line again. 

This time.. again.. I am kind of fed up with "work" or I could say.. my career. It doesn't feel like a career anymore, and reading my previous blog post I said "All I want to be is happy" is a really hard and unclear message in life. You could say that I've started looking at other career paths or even just a job to earn my income as I loosen up abit. But hey, I'm still not that confident in other paths but I don't mind working hard to succeed it just to make sure I don't end up in the same situation again. Having insomnia, worrying every time I go to sleep at night. Trying to enjoy life in every way but still end up feeling frustrated over the little things that don't go right for me. I mean, since I am a guy who likes the little happy things in life. I really get stressed easily when I cant have em. Quitting a career ain't an easy decision. I mean, you have to take into account about your financial, future plans, and also your health. You wouldn't want to be broke, sick and starving at the same time right? I mean that felt like shit and I've went through that before. I just feel really worried to go back to that situation again.. I mean.. hell I made a promise to myself never to starve when I started working and had cash. I had a few ideas even though I think they're utter bullshit. I wanted to join my friend and try out the entrepreneur route but then again, that's shit really hard than what I'm facing. Oh what am I saying.. every path has its own struggles. The other one was also similar as in starting my own business but of course like my friend said, I'd need to have a capital to start one. And lord knows how good the business will be based on how risky or how safe it is. Then again, the previous blog post kinda made me calm down abit and just say. "I'll do anything I want as long as that keeps me happy!" But that's not enough... I'll have to say "I'll do anything I want as long as that keeps me, my family and my friends happy!" I mean. I also wish I could enjoy times with friends and family before its too late. I wouldn't want to regret losing another person and not doing the things I wanted to do. So that's all I wanted to say in this blog post. A pretty boring and random blog post I'd say. But I'll try to sleep peacefully as hard as I can from now own lol.