Ruby Gloom... No more...

Yes... it seems I have finally grown out of this stage.... I used to love ruby gloom alot... thinking it was a good think and a helpful thing...... fortunately.. it is... I feel different now.... I feel changed... as if RuBy Gloom isn't something anymore... I don't feel sad for this.. or any of it.. its just a part I'm going through life.... What I'm waiting for is the BIG moment of my life... and only GOD knows what it is.... so I have unsubscribed.. removed.. and deleted.. my connections from ruby gloom community... Come to think of IT, what should I do know after this stage... probably.. and most obviously.. SPM is my concern... but yet my mind feels unsure if it is my concern... there is a part of me that thinks of something else.... and so my adventure through life continues....

Coming Near the End of the Line .

End of the line it is becoming... I have no idea what to do next... It seems the people I hoped for Shut the doors and left me out in the cold... Who knows... My test is over.. holiday is here... yet I'm still sitting out in the cold.. all alone... No one understands me... Its like I'm moving through a thorn bush blindfolded and open wounds.... stab my open wounds.. hurting more painful.. But the thought of killing oneself is not to be done or to be practiced.. No route of escape.. No exit.. I am forever trapped here.... END OF THE LINE IT IS...