Troubled Times

In Troubled times..... I keep getting frustrated.. I can't take it no more... Everything I try to do ends up in a BIG MISTAKE . I seriously can't take it anymore.... why is this happening to me.. Why do I keep failing to do simple stuff..... so I even tried to turn to GOD for help... and yet it still isn't enough.. there are still alot more problems to solve.... I keep making mistakes that I lost my self-confidence and because... BECAUSE I was frustrated.. I end up getting angry and then I make even more mistake..... and no one understands me because of how many screwed up things I had done.. ''God, what is going on?'' what is happening? everything is so wrong.. I wan't to make things right...

Ruby Gloom... No more...

Yes... it seems I have finally grown out of this stage.... I used to love ruby gloom alot... thinking it was a good think and a helpful thing...... fortunately.. it is... I feel different now.... I feel changed... as if RuBy Gloom isn't something anymore... I don't feel sad for this.. or any of it.. its just a part I'm going through life.... What I'm waiting for is the BIG moment of my life... and only GOD knows what it is.... so I have unsubscribed.. removed.. and deleted.. my connections from ruby gloom community... Come to think of IT, what should I do know after this stage... probably.. and most obviously.. SPM is my concern... but yet my mind feels unsure if it is my concern... there is a part of me that thinks of something else.... and so my adventure through life continues....

Coming Near the End of the Line .

End of the line it is becoming... I have no idea what to do next... It seems the people I hoped for Shut the doors and left me out in the cold... Who knows... My test is over.. holiday is here... yet I'm still sitting out in the cold.. all alone... No one understands me... Its like I'm moving through a thorn bush blindfolded and open wounds.... stab my open wounds.. hurting more painful.. But the thought of killing oneself is not to be done or to be practiced.. No route of escape.. No exit.. I am forever trapped here.... END OF THE LINE IT IS...

Forbidden Love

Dream of her,

Is all I can do,

Don't know why,

I can't stop,

Thinking of her,

She is so beautiful,

To me,

I want to be with her,

Every moment with her,

Makes me feel,

full of JOY,

But I can't be with her,

Although I think we make a good couple,

Reality says we can never be,

Oh how I wish you'd stay with me

Forbidden Love it is.

Stray Stargazer

Stars shine bright... people passing by... standing in the crowd... looking in the sky... a lonely stranger am I... I have gone astray... following a starlight ray...

Feeling lost.... feeling lonely... no one to talk to but himself... and his imaginary friends... all he have is the stars... their shimmering lights played host to him... Not thinking... not even a thought... wonders of the stars... forever in his own world...

That is all I want to express today...... cause I feel like it.... I'm also having a suspicion that someone is AVOIDING me... but it can't be... maybe its just coincidence...

Moving on, went to school in the breaking of dawn... did my work, referred a few notes., revised an old topic. Focused in classes, Bell rang, time to go home, walked in the sun, drenched like sponge...

Thoughts of the past catches up... wondering why their still here......

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Happy Mothers day

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!! to all the mothers who take care of their children out there with great responsibility and not to mention... with FAIRNESS ;D so I made this post to wish also my Mom.... she even stamped my new books with a special chop and she even wrote my name without me even asking... thanks alot mom ;D

along with this I want to share a poem about mother's day..

A mother's love determines how

We love ourselves and others.
There is no sky we'll ever see
Not lit by that first love.

Stripped of love, the universe
Would drive us mad with pain;
But we are born into a world
That greets our cries with joy.

How much I owe you for the kiss
That told me who I was!
The greatest gift--a love of life--
Lay laughing in your eyes.

Because of you my world still has
The soft grace of your smile;
And every wind of fortune bears
The scent of your caress.

Once again I say HAPPY MOTHERS day... ;D

I finnaly got a working player.. ;D

YEAH!!!!!!! finally I found a MUSIC flash player that does autoplay but I dont know about repeat . Now I can listen to my favourite song as much as I want ;D and you don't need to click it anymore... xD I would like to thank my kawan Aarief Zee for helping me in this... thanks alot Zee maybe now you can tell me how to make it run on autoplay? xD

My 1st Step To creating a blog...

HELLO THERE READERS OF MY BLOG... This is my 1st ever step to creating a blog.. although I thought it would be HARD but it was EASY PEASEY ;D . Well the ONLY hard thing about setting up this blog was the music... I managed to get my favourite music but It wont autoplay or repeat... sadly... :'( So yeah... As stated in the welcome Info above... this blog is for about my DAILY LIFE & MY IMAGINATIONS (Ideas & Thoughts) ;) so thats all there is to know for my 1st post... Mayb soon enough I might add more UNIQUE stuffs to the blog... ;)