Hello Autumn 2013!

Hello there, its been awhile again since I've updated from during my internship. Lets just say. All is well. It went out okay. Its not the best, but I'm very happy with the experience. No regrets. Though I still haven't finish my final report yet.. SHIT!

Soooo, JB was a nice holiday. I get to hang out with my high school friends more. Plus get to know my junior, Woody; more. Though he didn't ask my name and just wrote 'Sotong' when I went to buy a drink at Starbucks - -. Enjoyed my stay at JB for around 3 days. Felt quite relaxed at places like this that brings back memories that was only 2-4 years behind yet feels so nostalgic. Huh.... normally the word nostalgic is used to relate to something really far back. Oh well. Moving on, met up for the gathering on Saturday lunch. enjoyed Japanese ramen. Soon that I realized, I was already back in Subang living a lifeless life everyday just on the internet while waiting for the new semester to start. 

Ah yes. Animu this fall has some of my favourites, so it ain't that half bad. :). That's all for now. Oh yes. updated music on blog.. enjoy this slow jazz. Peace out!

ITS TIME. FOR INTERNSHIP. >:)

こんにちは! Hello! A short post from me in awhile. This time of the year is when the battles get hard and having absolute resolve and steel determination is what gets me through this semester. It will be the hardest hurdle I'll face ever yet. At the same time. Its gonna be the most exciting adventure of my career life!

Currenty I am an Intern Animator in Les' Copaque Sdn. Bhd. (For those who dont know what company it is, its the company that makes Upin and Ipin and Pada Zaman Dahulu).

Now I know how people don't like to do stuff like this or people say "Doing 3D work like that? Pfft. Thats humiliating."

All I can say to that person is that they are missing out on a lot of stuff and they don't understand how fun it is at this company and how much you'll learn and how good the standard is here. Animation here is tough with tight deadlines. But 3d modeling too is tough with the discipline and how neat your work needs to be compared to animation :).

So there is a fair amount of struggle in each departments, thats all I could say. Apart from work here in the company, its quite a ward and friendly company because everyone here wants to be creative and have fun while working. Learning is a though process. It takes time, effort, and practice to hone your skills and get a better understanding. 

しかあああああああああし！BUUUUUUUUT!

THAT WONT STOP ME FROM MY ADVENTURE UP THE STAIRS IN MY CAREER!

いくぜ! ONWARD! TOWARDS VICTORY~!

with steel determination. absolute resolve. and fiery passion. >:)

Reality strikes.

Sup..... its been awhile since I posted.... I've just finished my 6th semester and next semester is Industrial Training.. or known as.. Internship. I've found my identity and self-branding in design. I've gotten closer to people I like; and, had all the opportunity I could get with that special someone. Though I've not been taking any of those opportunities... rather.. I just shun them away from me. Today I woke up from a dream that has "TOLD" me so hard... the first thing i did when i open my eyes was shout "F***, F***! , F***KING! F***K!". Yes I was extremely pissed at what my dream told me I could have done while I was that...

The train station that I waited at.

photo taken from here

Could have, Would have, Should have. Its all gone now. Though when another opportunity comes. I'm still not sure if I'll hesitate or I'll make my move. As the older I get.. falling in love with people happens even lesser... and letting it go is even harder...
--REALITY--
 That being said, let me explain to you that timeless Monday night when I was coming back from college done with my assignments and going to retire for the night. I accompanied her on the way back because its on the way home to my place anyway. That was the biggest opportunity I got so far. Just me, and her, sitting together in the train station.. just... waiting... for the train... no one was even on our platform.. it was already 10.30pm that time. So we just talked. Discussed about internship and further more. Train arrived; I just went it and waited for my stop. I felt a bit sad that she didn't join the same coach as me and went to the women's coach instead because it was already late. I felt a bit useless for not making her feeling secure enough and what not... But my stop came first so it was best she wasn't in this coach anyway. I got off, she just texted me goodbye and I texted back..
--DREAM--
So, this is was a rebuild of what could have happened that night in my dream. We were there.. talking..... my dream showed me...
I asked if I could hold her hand. I did. I talked to her seriously about what I really think about her. I wasn't even tensed... I was just relaxed... speaking like it was my last day of my life..  "Ya know.. my friend told me I am a "flower heart"(花心), because... in high school.. 1 moment I liked a girl.. the next moment I liked another, but this time its different... I've been looking at you for around 2 years already, of course there was some moment that some other girl was on my mind, but I came back immediately after that and just totally forgotten about her.. so far.. you're the only girl that's on my mind... I wish you could be my girlfriend.. and I wish to only be you on my mind... I've gotten to know more about you for over these two years.. and I only grew to like you, the more I know you every time"

so fuckin' naive, cheesy and stupid

andddddddd bam. I woke up and had FEELS and RAGE immediately.... sigh...... though I keep telling myself its just a dream.... but my heart thinks its not just a dream...

Livin' in a new place! Livin' in a new room! I finally have a room!

Hey guys, I'm just back after a long inactivity since December and before getting to the main part, I'm just going to update on what happened since I was gone. December was great. I had fun. It started out quite bad at first but then I just got on with in and put it behind me. I enjoyed my time with my bros at the reunion sleepover party and catch up with each other and get to know what we've all be doing currently. This semester break is the last I might have in JB so I took sometime to prepare myself for leaving, well.. for good. For now, I'll not be going back to JB for sometime but maybe when I have the time I'll drive myself back all the way to JB or take a bus down to meet some of my bros. Not all of us are in JB right now. Most of us are in KL but our buddies back in JB and also in UK still will be missed. Though we are on skype everyday, going out and hanging out means a big difference then just chatting on skype daily.

So, I left JB, me and my family did some packing because we're moving to a new place. I now just moved to the next taman in Subang. Life felt a bit easier since for the first time in years I've been properly taken care of financially by my parents. Now I know I've been sort of a bad kid living off my parents money, but I try to give back sometimes even though I'm lazy. I have to thank my parents for giving me my own room and all the stuff along with it, because for once I feel very comfortable at home for once. "Hey I have my own room finally! I can do my stuff in peace". Even my assignments ;).

This is my room with my PC and my own bed for once :)

"So, Yeah... I have my own room... finally... but somehow I don't feel as happy as expected but I'm.. mmmmm... sorta at ease now". Got a new PC for my Multimedia Freelance and for future to come.

Xeon, Sapphire 7850HD 2GB, Asus Board. ;)

I also got another thing new from my parents (thanks to them again). Finally! Ladies and gentlemen I have finally got my FIRST(yes first... orz) touchscreen phone.. and also its of the new age phone.. :D I put my K800i and my brothers Nokia XpressMusic into the archives now..

OWH YEAH!

This sem is abit adventurous.. I have subjects like 3D Animation, Web Design, Design Project Management and Production in Multimedia! So yeah all the heavy works are out this sem and time management is really essential this term.. and yet I still such at pro at procrastinating :/ boy this sucks.

So yeah thats all about it. I'm sorry if I'm being too showing off but there is literally.. nothing to put on here or talk about.. just the small changes in life.. but it means alot to me.. Thats all!